I Ain't Mad At Cha: The Power in Goodbye

First, let me start off by saying, peace. Peace is what resides in my heart after finally allowing God to heal me. For a long time, I blamed you for hurting , mistreating, and not appreciating me.

In fact, my thoughts about you were unkind and led to anger and resentment

(two sure signs of a woman scorned).

Then, time passed and God began to do a work. In this process, He revealed to me--ME! Yep, I said it! He showed me my toxic behaviors, mindsets, and ways that developed due to influences from childhood, society, and brokenness. I was able to take a mental walk down memory lane. Each memory of us revealed to me truth:

You were never suppose to be in the picture and I put you there anyways.

There were times your actions screamed "I'm not the one for you" yet I wanted you to be, at least in my naivete way of thinking.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not taking full blame for our childish and inconsistent situationship!lol What I am saying is this, that I ain't mad at cha.

I had to come to a point in my life where I realized that no man or thing can fulfill me. Only God can fulfill the deep longing in each person's soul.

With maturity and time, I am a better woman today.

No bitterness, just blessings. No resentment, just a resolving presence of peace.

No "I hate you" or ill words for anyone. I just have a few scars that remind me not to move ahead of God.

So, even if we never cross paths again or share an exchange of words, may the same healing I experienced happen to you. May God's grace and mercy overtake you. May you mature into the man of God you're suppose to become. May He bless you in His timing with the right woman because it was definitely not me. Last, but not least, may you know that I ain't mad at cha.

Sincerely,

a woman who has learned

how to forgive and move on.

Food for Thought

How can you move on if you never heal?

How can you heal if you don't self-reflect?

How can you be a blessing if you are unwilling to be vulnerable?